lil paw$

by kelly shaw nyala

1.
~  ~  ~  ~  Oya behind the clouds in visions,    p.m.    -- 
          --       trees down in the hood.
          been sleeping on the floor 81 days,
          skin peeled like snakes--
          2nd degree,   didn’t call Dad. 

          (everybody’s moving ash or bricks--           
                                             Oshun trying hard,    honey-kiss.)
           she say, “turn up the volume on the vixen meter-- 
                              (do it 4 yourself.)”

                              * (n be protected in the street$.) *

2.
… i suggested,   “feed me cherries    ~    come correct    ~    
                                                 don’t talk to me wit a stop 
                                             sign.”  

~~~ you are right next to me but not, cuz i’m in the rainforest again--
           and you been disjointed    wit reason, 
           hard 4 me to wrap my head around, tho we just 2 hours apart ~~~
                   (( mirror/mirror makes me tired,    so much fire a veces. ))


3.
far away    ~    near    ~    walls down en momentitos thru thee fog--
            {it’s all sparkle-green,    like kelly shaw nyala in a gem-hike.}

            say my name,   a mami now-- i wanted 4, but 3 is a facet
            today.

            (eventually we come to 11 wherein a house is lavender-made by
            her--
            Or Nah
            her--
            statement piece 4 the peace of mind we knew in 
            an original field 
            pre-word$, 
            flowers-to-mouth,
            lil paws & petals in the mix-- 

            a gaze as    “we’ve spoken.”

            a street as safe b4 it was. 

About kelly shaw nyala

kelly shaw nyala (née Willman) is an (experimental/outsider) performance artist. as a performance artist, she blends sound, installation, & ritual; she gravitates towards sites in nature. her largest project to date, new/mind/ritualz, launched in the spring of 2014; it is a 56-movement performance art offering released one movement at a time. new/mind/ritualz ultimately explores memories, demonstrates moments of personal growth in the present, & invokes rituals of healing + action for the collective future. with deep listening and humbled permission as the foundation, the artist navigates ongoing intimate conversations with womxn creatives, medicine women, womxn elders, social justice voices, & trauma survivors, resulting in art material that threads itself throughout new/mind/ritualz. kelly also praises The Black Woman as Gawd– an honoring that appears in her every work. she expresses rich relationships to Oshun, Yemaya, and Oya. in addition to a daily art practice, an Afrikan-rich spiritual practice inspires her deeply. the artist is loyal to issues concerning the systemic oppression of all marginalized peoples. her blossoming expertise, however, is in reppin those born with a milli extra pores (artist-healers) who are more likely as a result of trauma, lack of access to compassionate mental health treatment & familial/social support, to fall thru the cracks of American society. kelly identifies as an empath + highly sensitive person + introvert, a feminist, bruja, reinita, bad bitch, homebody, poet, writer, beadworker, a practiced shadow worker, mental wellness advocate, generational trauma pattern breaker, an anti-rape activist, independent researcher, & experientially engaged voice on recovery with Complex PTSD. kelly was raised among the cornfields of Eastern Iowa, & has lived in Brooklyn, Costa Rica, & Thailand. 

Learn more at kellyshawwillman.blogspot.com

Follow her on Instagram @kelly.shaw.nyala